I just wanna live...I wish I could breathe.

hawthorne heights. the loving resort of all down times.
<3

I always say the wrong thing, and it never quite pleases anyone.
My opinions are too harsh, and I have a problem with trust and respect.
I had to have the advanced algebra lesson taught to me 5 times today.
I am such an epic failure sometimes.

I just don't understand why it matters so much?

I hate fighting with my dad-but he doesn't wait to listen to anything I actually think or feel. just jumps to the conclusion that I'm a typical drug addicted ignorant teenager.

I can't wait for church....I really need some church.
2 more days....

: /

What if...

16 years old, healthy, good family, above average grades. Ya know, one would think that she's just starting out.

but you know, the world of gymnastics doesn't.
they see her, as old, broken and no longer worth the time of day.

at the age of 16, you're old in gymnastics.
as a sophomore.

it's pathetic. and that's why we still love it.

after it kills us and then gives us a moment to shine. (followed by another murderous practice)

I'd do anything to go back. and see what it would be like if I hadn't of quit when things got rough.

because hell, I'm a lot stronger now and I'd love to know....What if...

Hello New Decade : D

Who can resist the new years posting?

With a new laptop, Thanks Grandparents! and a red bull I am completely set for this.

2009 brought many things, it changed my life.

a lot of bad choices, quite a few
I truly regret a lot of what happened.


I don't want to say that about 2010.

Truly, I believe you and me can do anything.
we'll both get jobs, bodies we want, and the adventures we're longing for.

Let's start this thing off right.

Quotations

These are simply a few of my favorite quotes that I've found over a period of time...



"before you follow in someone's footsteps, make sure they're headed in the right direction"
-unknown

"I just...don't know what to do Megan"
-alex cyert

"Where the fuck is Gavin?! Shit, he's on my ass. Fuck I'm going 40!"
-Derek Sveen

"Since it's Christmas, and we tell the truth around the holidays. I want you to know that to me....you are perfect"
-Love Actually

"Just remember to love the little things in life, Like running in the rain."
-Hinder

"I spend a lot of time with my dog, he's pretty cool"
-Jean Leighton

"If this text pisses me off, I'm going to scream fuck really loud"
-Lee Boetcher

"It's great that people in the demographic, are listening to the word of the Gap...They are now disciples of plaid"
-Pastor Justin

"you're beating with a book, everyone that the book tells you to love."
-unknown

"Maybe I should take my clothes off now?"
-Gabsy Anderson

"I want you to know that I am both happy and sad, and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."
-Charlie, Perks of being a wallflower

"I may not follow my religion, but I'm definitely a CHRISTIAN"
-unknown

"Life is like a play, it is not the length that is important, but the excellence of the acting"
-unknown

Radiohead rawr.

Happy Birthday to Me~

I am now 16, with no license not even a permit and no job. I am so accomplished : )
Spending the day with my best friend-shopping, eating, and looking at christmas lights in La Crosse. Now doesn't that sound like a rad way to spend your sixteenth birthday? I think so.

With one friend deciding to enlist in the military, and another lacking a will to even pass his classes I'm at a loss for what to say. Hopefully, everything will work out in the end. It has to, if it's not okay...it's not the end.

I have a new goal, it's to spend no more then 16 dollars an clothes...there is just so much good stuff out there if you're willing to dig! I mean, Jeggings for $4.00? ah-mazing. I am in desperate need of a camera. I haven't taken a new picture in months : (

Les Poling (curse him) got me addicted to gangsta music and radiohead. I don't like either. Stupid Gorgeous Boy.


Summer, Where are you? I lost you in all this white, icey stuff.
<--Mugby trips and Marching Band.
Beach Parties and gettin' Blazed.

Tank tops, Bandannas and Converse.
Hemp Necklaces and Hot Weather.

Man, I can really say.
Summer, I miss you<3

Let it snow, Let it snow, Let us sing.

I am in shock that it is already December! This year seems to be going by faster that I could have imagined. Already into second term with a speech, research, and a test to study for I have been so busy with academics alone. However I am finding time for what I actually enjoy.

Chamber choir season is in full swing as Christmas is fast approaching. The group of people I stand alongside at those events truly make my life happier. The choir room is definitely where you'll find me in WSHS when I'm not around. Tonight is the Messiah at WSU and I am eagerly waiting for that experience. Then Monday night comes our winter full choir concert at Pleasant Valley Church. My, my, practices there are chilly! Hopefully, everyone will hit their notes, our chords will sound right and no one will forget to clap during "There'll Be Joy" : )

I sometimes forget how much I truly love spending time with my mom. Last night, her and I adventured to La Crosse shopped for CD's and Christmas Ornaments and had a nice meal at Rocky Rococos. All in all, I've been having a blast the last few days.

Hopefully, I can find some time to relax today because I definitely need some!

Let's Commence

So, the idea of blogging seemed really good at the time. Although as all new things seem to do it has since gotten lost in the sea of busyness that is my life. Hopefully, I can return to a semi-regular amount of entries to keep the world up to date...by world I mean the few that care enough to read. : )

As first term has come to an end, I must say I am proud of my grades. Receiving straight A's with the exception of a B+ in Advanced Algebra I now have a standard to keep up. As I looked at my cumulative GPA, I realized how much I had screwed myself over freshmen year. Stupid. Stupid mistake. However, I learned from that and hopefully can avoid it in the future.

With the holidays comes the stress, love, and tradition that are so abundant in my families household. As we prepare to host Thanksgiving dinner, throw a Pampered Chef party, and decorate with our multiple Christmas trees we are learning to appreciate each others talents with less yelling than past years. I have been busy, desperately trying to organize my bedroom in such a way that I can fit in my own Christmas tree but I'm having no such luck. Good thing I've still got over a month to work it out!

With a broken camera, no money, and no social life as I've been grounded and will be for awhile--I lack a great deal of things to talk about.

alas, I shall be going off to paint my nails.

Question: What comes to mind first when you think of the holiday season?